All the previous writing was an assignment for an English class I was enrolled in. Today, I'm feeling low, and so decided to write about my feelings and if anyone out there has an opinion, please post. Thanks.
Anyhoo, it's Christmas time. I'm not Christian, but I still celebrate the "spirit of the season". (most of my family is Christian, so it stands to reason, I suppose.) I find myself getting all depressed about not being able to buy my grandson a gift for his first Christmas. I know it isn't about the gifts, but for me it IS about the giving, and I simply can't afford to give to anyone at this time.
Also, there is this problem I have with my current "day job". I have spent months trying to get out of working there. I have managed to only go part-time. 20 hours a week. It really helped me with my grades in school, and getting family time. However, this loss of paid time (by choice, mind you) is killing my financial situation. My house payment is late, my car payment...you name it. I thank God that I have no small children at home to feed. I have a teenager and a fiance/husband, but we all go in different directions so much, that I don't have to keep food in the house.
And now for my "real" problem. do you ever feel all alone and small in such a big world. I have so many friends and family that I didn't know what to do once school started, and I pretty much had to ditch everyone for studies. Now, everyone is so used to my being un-available, that no one calls or comes around, and I hardly get posts to my facebook anymore. And I feel all alone...I'm so bummed out.
I guess I'm done whining. (for now...teehee!)
I hope you all enjoy a WONDERFULLY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
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